No its not easy

we who all longed for this "light", find it the hardest journey to make.

trying hard to be part of the 'in' crowd, responsibilities, commitments, so many events running concurrently in our lives which ironically only left us dis-illusioned, when we thought that by doing all these things, we will become happier people.

i yearn for acceptance, for being part of a group, not being called random, for not being viewed as weird. In the process, I lose sight of who i really am, who i really want to be.

so who do i really want to be?

a hero? a rockstar? a celebrity? accepted into heaven? enjoy the riches of eternity? who or what do i really want to be?

Our darkness delay and lengthen this journey from the mind to the heart. I am still seeking. i feel weak, vulnerable...

So, what is that language the heart requires? Faith, hope and love. And above all, love. If the reason to change is to love God more, the heart conforms and takes decisive actions. How do we speak such a language? We learn it from living with others... who are they... i guesss they are the community