wat happens when

SOmeone tells you that he/she likes you b4,
drop a number of hints
but u nv tried the affrim it
hot and cold rs for 4 yrs,
she knows your IC and home address by heart

but nv got further than friends.

you can only go haiz if only...


its funny how the 3 of us-me, huili and sara end up in the same module together after so many yrs. looking forward to AA102 lectures now! esp cos the exam is on B day and I wanna make sure it will be a blast.

i forgot to bring my notes for bible classes today. Oh man! i will be losing out tonight

anyway yest reading was on lucifer
the greatest sin of all-pride.

everyone sins... it is only whether you admit it and entrust it to the lord.
when you feel you are more powerful than the divine forces and take things in your own hands, you believe u are sin free, that is the greatest sin

so is there a gauge for sins?
if pride is the greatest sin? who decides on the degree of each sin?
wi can only deduce that it goes back to the original pt that it is pride that causes one to believe he did not sin. Not admiting the sin due to pride is the greatest sin

Then the question is," Do I not admit to a sin because of pride?"

and in a broad sense," do we never stop pursuing things we want in our life due to pride?"

In an emotional perspective,
If one feels that he is weak, admits that he is weak, that he needs the lord's embrace, he will naturally turn to god. In contrast, if one feels that the future is in his own hands, does not acknowledge the lord as the way to the truth, he will naturally treat god as just a 2nd class citizen.

"I am only an earthen vessel
the graces within are not mine
for the love and the power and glory
belong to the savior divine"

The 12 apostles were told by our lord," Come, come follow me."

Imagine the thoughts in their mind when the state of fire was only a tiny spark.

Is he mad? one man challenging the ideology of the govt and the rest of world?
Is he the one, and only way?

He led his ministry... and many ministries continue after him.

If the apostles did not believe in him, did not persevere thru the blood shed and cynism, will we still be on our knees every other day,


Today... catholic history is illustrious... the beauty itself is a mystery for you and I. The only way to be part of the beauty is to have the hunger for christ itself

that comes with a price- giving up things precious to you like cycling, hanging out with friends. but wat is this sacrifice as compared to christ who gave his life for us.

New Yr day eve-new yr day

Wat did you do on New Yr eve?

i wasn't at a party, wasn't at home slping or any count down parade. I was at Church on New Yr eve.


i was kneeling, having on eyes on christ, as i said my last prayer of 2005, 1st prayer of 2006 ... the clock struck 12 and the choir started singing the familiar song of Au liem sai..

i really do hope for the gift of faith

wat will you associate christmas with

when one think of christmas, he thinks of the gifts he is bout to receive, the church choir, the ringing of bells

at christmas, love is in the air

Christmas season is the most beautiful time of the yr, christmas shd be everyday

2006 christmas was a special one for me, it was my first christmas as a catholic.

it was like star award night where everyone was dressed at their best.

(photos will be up soon)

at 11pm, SFX choir started the christmas pageant.
Gloria,
O Come all Ye Faithful
Joy to the World,
just to name a few

mass started at 11.30pm.
father gerard started the mass with us reflecting on the walk with christ since last christmas,
during the reflection, there was a beautiful sound of silence in the church
That solemn moment is sth much needed after the hustle and bustle since morning

we started singing gloria... and at 12am.. the chruch bells rang...that wil be 30 catholic church bells ringing in singapore

many of us teared as we hug each other and thank the lord for one another... and for him who saw us through another turbulent yr.

christmas is significant to all christians as it is the supposed birthday of Jesus. why supposed... cos his b day is actually in the mth of Mar.

It is not about just jesus's birthday itself, but it is the process which is impt to us.

-Mary, who listened to the word of the angel-Gabriel without asking why

-The 3 Maji, who travelled from Eygpt to bethlehem to witness the coming of the Mersiah

-The old shepherd, and farmers who climbed the hill to see the light which was shinning down into the merger

-How Jesus, was borned, not in riches, in warm clothings, but in rags and in a mager

-Mary and Joseph were not let into the houses, the house keeper would not have left the king in the cold

-he was the greatest gift to all of us, but this gift was wrapped in rags and not beautiful wrapping paper

Christmas is just the most beautiful time of the yr... when i was a child, when i am 21 yr of age.

I am a catholic

did a bit of clearing up just now in prep for the new yr.

wooHOO... feel so proud of myself.

threw away some of our insurance stuff... sieving through the pile of work.

oh well...
as i was looking back to a yr ago to now...

i just ponder over many many changes.

I am officially jobless...
a point of time i was really thinking of the possibility of bringing back 15K a mth from the job

i am officially not a competitive cyclist anymore
east coast park is of my calibre now

i am officially in the garage for an overhaul (which is good)
I trying to get away from my liberal lifestyle, trying to stop my smelly mouth from spouting nonsense


Mel chen shared with us her view on consistency today. how even though lawyers lead a liberal life out there... she knows her limit....
well, apparently a few mths back b4 i joined... the community had a severe arguement over individual's lifestyle.

well... it is an issue i have to deal with sooner or later... thru discernment... i decided to tell the grp bout my issue with consistency.

ye.. it was fun while it lasted... but i officially put a stop to it once and for all

This yr, or rather last yr... marks my rebirth.

on jan 1st, i decided that Its no more Ong xxx xxx steven, now its stephen Ong xxx xxx....
in 1 yr 4 mths time its gonna be stephen john xxx xxxx

and in 2 yrs time... perhaps its gonna be stephen john paul xxx xxxxx....

wat a powerful name!!!