its 11.30pm period

i am at sara's house trying to squeeze the last bits of acc into my head

so this is my life now- study... study... study


everyone says i am very emo nowadays

now that i think of it... yeah i get very upset easily... its ironic cos i am supposed to feel better as a person now

ye i am feeling better spiritually.. maybe the humanly side of me is still struggling to accept that i have to give up the material and emotional wants in life

Its hard- the struggle with dettaching yourself from society, affirming yourself that god will provide
easily said... but its so hard to take the 1st step forward.

Guess i am still struggling to find out who i am...

or who i want to be

either way...

i pray for the grace...

i pray for guidance

i pray for my heart to be broken, smashed into pieces, so that i can learn to be a child again